I was born & lived in Namibia all my life
& surrendered my life to Jesus on Feb 6 2005. The Lord Jesus Christ
has revealed many things in the spiritual realm to me including a
couple of trips to Hell. The Lord instructed me to share my experiences
with the people;
He also warned me not to add anything or omit anything
from whatever the Lord Jesus Christ showed or told me. By the time of
the writing of this book, end of 2006, I was visited 33
times by the Lord Jesus Christ. Every single time of those visitations,
the Lord would tell me before leaving that
: TIME IS FAST RUNNING OUT.
FIRST TRIP TO HELL
On the weekend of 23 July 2005, I took a
thirty-minute taxi ride from the town of Ondangwa where I work and stay,
to my home village, to spend the weekend with my parents. On my way
home, I had a feeling that something extraordinary was going to happen
that evening. I arrived home at around 18H00 and that was the time
people were preparing for dinner.
I was in the kitchen with the rest of
my family, lying down on an old sheet on the ground, while my little
nieces and nephews were singing their Sunday School songs. Suddenly I
felt a heavy anointing come upon me, my body became very weak, and I was
out under the power of God. I saw a man, wearing a long white robe tied
with a rope of the same color, walking towards where I was lying. There
was a brilliant light around Him as though it were radiating from Him.
He was wearing brown sandals; His features were like people from the
Middle East, with a beautiful tanned skin. His face was very kind and
full of glory but I was unable to look Him in the eyes.
When He spoke,
His voice was tender, kind and loving, yet authoritative; waves of love
were emanating from His very being. He extended His hand to me and pulled me up from
where I was lying. Suddenly I was in a beautiful, transformed body; I
looked the same as I was when I was eighteen years old. I was wearing a
white robe tied with a white rope. Although my robe was white, the
material was different from the man’s robe. His robe was silky with a
brilliance that I do not know how to describe.
He said, in a most loving and tender voice: “Victoria,
I want you to come with me; I will show you frightening things and I am
taking you to a place where you have never been before in your whole
life”. He held my right hand and we went. I felt as if we
were walking on air and we were ascending all the time. After a while on
the way, I was very tired and told Him that I was unable to continue
the journey and begged Him to allow me to go back. However, He looked at
me tenderly and said, “You are not tired – you are fine. If you get tired, I will carry you, but for now you are fine. Peace be with you. Let us go.”
The place at which we arrived was very arid, worse
than the worst desert known to man, with no sign of life in any form
whatsoever. There was not a single tree or blade of grass or any living
thing in sight. It was a very depressing place indeed.
We came to a gate and the man turned to me and said:
“Victoria, we will enter through the gate and the things you will see
will frighten and upset you – but you must rest assured that wherever I
take you, you will be well protected. Just open your eyes and observe
everything I will show you.” I was terrified and started
to weep. I was protesting and pleaded with the man to take me back. I
told Him that I did not want to go into that place because I could see
through the gate what was going on inside. He looked at me and said, “Peace be with you; I am with you. We must go inside, for time is fast running out.”
We entered through the gate. I cannot describe to you the horror of that place. I am convinced that there is
no other place in the entire universe as bad as that place. The place
was extremely large and I had the sense that it was expanding all the
time. It was a place of utmost darkness and the heat of it could not be
measured: it was hotter than the hottest of fires. I could not see any
flames of fire or the source of the heat but it was HOT.
The place was
filled with flies of all sizes – green, black, and grey flies. Every
conceivable kind of fly was there. In addition, there were also short,
thick, black worms everywhere, climbing on everything. The worms started
to climb on us and the flies were also all over us. The place was
filled with the most disgusting stench; there are no words to describe
the intensity of the stench in that place. The smell was almost like
rotten meat but was a hundred times worse than the most decaying meat I
have ever smelled in my entire life. The place was filled with the noise
of wailing and gnashing of teeth, as well as of demonic, evil laughter.
The worst thing about this place is that it was
filled with people. There were so many people that they could not be
numbered. The people were in the form of skeletons. I can say with
confidence that these skeletons were humans because I recognized some of
my very close relatives and people from my village. Their bones were
dark grey and extremely dry. They had long sharp teeth like wild
animals. Their mouths were large and wide and their tongues were long
and bright red. Their hands and feet had long, thin toes and fingers
with long, sharp nails. Some of them had tails and horns.
There were demons mingling with the people: the demons in appearance looked like alligators and they were
walking on four legs. They were comfortable in that environment and were
constantly teasing and tormenting the humans. The noise that the demons
were making was more like a celebration, as they seemed happy and
carefree; they were also dancing and jumping all the time. The humans,
on the other hand, looked miserable and depressed; they were in a state
of helplessness and hopelessness.
The noise from humans was caused by
pain; they were weeping, screaming and gnashing their teeth, and were in
a desperate situation of unimaginable pain and agony.The people in this place, were innumerable but I
could clearly see that the vast majority of them were women. They were
divided into many different groups. Even if they were in the groups, it
was not possible to estimate the number of people in any single group
because the groups were extremely large.
The man led me to one of the groups on the eastern side of the place. He looked at me and said: “Victoria,
this is a group of people who refused to forgive others. I told them
many times in many different ways to forgive others but they rejected
me; I have forgiven them all their sins but they refused to forgive
others. Their time ran out and they found themselves here. They will be
here for all eternity; they are eating the fruits of their labor for
ever and ever. However, it is painful for me to see them in this
horrible place and in this eternal situation – because I love them.“
I was then led to the next group, and the man told me
that the people in the second group were those who had debts. There
were three different categories in that group. The first category was of
people who owed to others: they could afford to pay their dues but they
kept postponing and procrastinating. They would claim that they would
pay tomorrow, next week, next year, until the time ran out for them and
now they had found themselves in this place. This is where they will
stay forever; they are eating the fruits of their labor.
The second category
was of those who had debts that they could afford to pay back and they
were willing to pay their debts, but they were afraid of the
consequences because, perhaps, if they told the truth they might suffer
rejection or they might go to jail or what they had done would be made
known to the whole world and they would be humiliated.
The man said: “None
of them came to me to ask me for a way. If they had done so, I would
have shown them the easy way out. They used their own wisdom and
reasoning which did not help them in any way. Their time ran out and
they found themselves in this place where they will be for ever. They
are eating the fruit of their labor.”
Then He said: “The third category had
debts which they could not afford to pay back, but, again, none of them
had told me that they had debts they were unable to pay. If they had
done so, I would have paid their debts. They also tried to use their own
reasoning and wisdom, which did not help them in any way. Now they have
found themselves in this place where they will always be. They are
eating the fruit of their labor. My heart is aching for all these people
because I love them dearly.”
In the first group, I saw two of my very close female
relatives, as well as a twelve year-old, also a relative of mine. I
knew she was twelve because that was how old she was at the time of her
death. In the second group I also saw some of my relatives, as well as a
Pastor whom I knew very well. Jakes, my boyfriend who had committed
suicide because I gave my life to Christ, was also in the second group. I
saw some of my neighbors in both groups as well.
I recognized the people I knew before their deaths;
they also recognized me. My relatives were very angry when they saw me
and they started to shout obscenities at me; they were using the most
vulgar language as they were cursing me. One of them said that I was not
worthy of following the man who was with me; they were telling the
things I used to do before I gave my life to Christ. They were not
lying; the things of which they were accusing me were the truth.
Jakes
was saying that I belonged to him and I should go where he was because I
had committed the same sins as he. At first the Pastor seemed happy to
see me and he said I did well by coming but his attitude changed
immediately when he saw who was accompanying me and then he also joined
in the cursing and the use of obscene language. The man with me told me
to ignore them for they did not know what they were doing.
I was petrified and extremely sad; my body was
shaking and I could not stand. I was crying uncontrollably. The man
turned to me, gave me a hug, and said: “Peace be with you, Victoria.“
My strength returned and I felt very secure in His embrace. Then He
told me that we had to leave the place and go back. He looked at me and
said: “Victoria, I have shown you. Now you must choose in
which of the groups you want to be; the choice is in your own hands. You
must tell the people everything you have seen and experienced but do
not add or omit anything.”
I remembered that we left the place of horrors
together but I do not know where I left Him because then I became aware:
I opened my eyes and I was back in my physical body, lying in Oshakati
Hospital. There was a drip in my left arm, and I saw my mother and other
neighbors from our village in one corner of the room, where they were
looking at me in amazement. I could see on my mother’s face that she had
been crying. I asked one of the nurses if she knew what was wrong with
me but she only made a joke and said: “You were sent back; perhaps you
have done something wrong and you need to repent.” The nurse was trying
to speak lightheartedly about my condition but I could see she was
afraid to come closer to me. I asked her to call the doctor who attended
me.
When he arrived, he said that he did not know what
was wrong with me. Initially, he had thought that I had contracted
malaria but the malaria results were negative. He continued to tell me
that my temperature, pulse and blood pressure were dangerously low but
he could not find the cause for it. He said that there was nothing he
could do for me; he could not admit me because I was not sick. The drip
they had applied was not working at first but when I opened my eyes, it
started to work. He recommended that the nurse administered another drip
to me once the first one had finished so that I could get enough
strength to go home.
I was frightened by what I saw in that place and
couldn’t stop crying. The stench of that horrible place continued to be
as real as when I was there. The scenes from that place were flashing
before me all the time. I was unable to sleep and my whole body was in
great pain. I felt as though all my limbs had been taken apart, and
re-assembled. Oh, I felt awful. I had diarrhea and a pounding headache
for an entire week.
My mind was made up that I would not talk to anybody
about my experiences because who would believe me? What would people
think? I kept telling myself that I would never relate my experiences to
anybody. One of my mentors phoned me three days later to enquire about
my wellbeing because I sent her a text message asking her to pray for
me. Before I knew it I was telling her about my experiences. When I
realized what I was doing I had already told her most of the story. I
wanted to kick myself. I was crying because I was convinced that I had
made the biggest mistake of my life. Now the story was told, there was
no possibility I could hide it anymore. Now I knew that if God wants
something to be told, it will be told. He is God, after all.
On August 19, I woke up, feeling the signs of the
anointing in my physical body. I was weak and trembling, while waves of
electricity were going through my body. In the evening I saw a brilliant
light coming into the room and in the midst of it was the same man.
This time He sat down on a chair next to my bed. I have no idea where
this chair came from but it was there as soon as He was ready to sit
down. It was a beautiful chair made of solid gold; the shape was that of
a conventional chair, with back support. On each leg was a silver star
embedded in the gold; the same star was also in the centre of the back
support. There are round wheels on each leg.
After greeting me, He told me that He knew that I had
many questions about His identity and that He came to reveal Himself to
me and to explain certain things that I have experienced. He said: “I am Jesus Christ, your Saviour. If you have any doubts, look at my hands. That place where we went is Hell.“ When I looked at His hands, I saw scars where the nails pierced Him.
Dear friend, I want to tell you that hell is not a
figment of anybody’s imagination but it is a real place and it is
unpleasant. It was not made for people but for Satan and his demons. Our
rightful place is in Heaven with Jesus but we have to choose Jesus
before it is too late. Today, when you hear His voice, do not harden
your heart; accept Jesus as your personal Saviour today and live for
Him. Hell is a terrible place: it is a place of fear and sadness; it is a
place of torment and eternal cries and gnashing of teeth. Satan wants
to take as many people with him as possible. Do not co-operate with him;
co-operate with Jesus and you will live and not die.
I could not understand why the Lord would tell me to
make a choice between the two groups He showed me in Hell when I was
already a born-again Christian. I have accepted Him into my life and He
was still telling me to make a choice whether I want to go to Hell or
not. I could not understand. I started to pray and asked God to give me a
revelation of what He meant and what He wanted me to do. The Lord
revealed to me that I was harboring a lack of forgiveness and resentment
in my heart towards one of my sisters, as well as to my cousin. I asked
the Lord to forgive me for my unforgiving spirit; I also asked my
sister to forgive me for harboring anger and bitterness in my heart
toward her. The Lord instructed me to go and ask forgiveness from my
cousin.
The Lord also reminded me that there was a time when I
acquired a teaching job with a fraudulent diploma and He considered
that to be debt and theft. I was determined to do what was right and I
asked the Lord to help me through this problem and to show me an easy
way out because this was a serious crime which could send me behind
bars. He directed me to go to the Department of Education and confess
what I had done. I was ready to go to jail if this was unavoidable. I
experienced the Lord’s favor in a big way.
The officials in the
Department of Education told me that I should decide what I wanted to
do: whether to pay back the salary I had received from the government or
not. They promised not press charges against me because they were
stunned by my confession. Our God is a faithful God who honors His Word.
If you are in a situation similar to the one I was
in, I want to encourage you to do what is right, no matter the
consequences. You might be incarcerated in the earthly jail but that is
temporal. No pain or shame will compare to Eternity separated from God.
Hell is not a nice place: it is better to allow God to judge you now
before it is too late. We must not fear God’s judgment while we are in
the time of Grace: we must allow Him to expose whatever is wrong in our
lives while we still have time to make right with Him because there is
no forgiveness on the other side of the grave.
SECOND TRIP TO HELL
On October 18 2005 I woke up at 05H30 but I could not
go to work. I was feeling very weak and drunk; I could not move or turn
around in my bed, and the presence of the Lord was very heavy in the
room. I was trembling and felt electricity going through my body. The
Lord came to take me just before 08H00 because the last time I had
looked at my watch, it was 07H48, and he arrived very shortly after
that. He greeted me and said that we should go again because time was
fast running out. I stood up and we began to walk.
The way we were
walking on this day was very different from all other times; although
our legs were doing the walking movements, we were sort of floating more
than walking. While we were on our way, Jesus told me that all sins are
bad and there is nothing such as small sin and big sin. All sin will
lead to death, no matter how big or small. The Lord told me that we were
going to visit Hell again and then He asked me if I was afraid. I
answered that I was afraid.
He said, “The spirit of fear is not from
My Father or from Me, it is from the Devil. Fear will cause you to do
things that will land you in hell.“
Without faith it is impossible to please God and fear
is the direct opposite of faith. It is obvious that fear does not
please God because it destroys one’s faith. For the whole time we were
on our way, we were walking side by side but as soon as we arrived at
the gate of Hell, He took my hand into His and held it for every second
we were in Hell. I was very happy that the Lord was holding my hand
because the firm grip of His hand removed all the fear from me. The
place was still the same: nothing was different from the first time.
There were flies, worms, extreme heat, the smell, skeletons, the noise:
everything was just as it was the first time I was there. We entered the
same ugly gate again and the Lord took me to one group of people. There
were many people I knew when they were still alive on Earth. The poor
people were in a terrible state; they looked miserable and in great
agony but the worst of all was the look of hopelessness on their faces.
The Lord pointed out one middle-aged woman whom I
knew before her death. She had died in a car accident at the beginning
of 2005. I was shocked to see that woman in Hell because we all knew her
as a God-fearing and God-loving person. The Lord told me that that
woman loved Him and He also loved her; she had served Him when she was
on Earth; she had led many people to the Lord and she knew the Word very
well. She was kind to the poor and needy; she gave to them, and helped
them in many ways. She was a good servant of the Lord in most ways.
Those words of the Lord shocked me even more and I
asked Him why He would let someone who had served Him so well end up in
Hell. The Lord looked at me and said that this lady had believed the
deception of the Devil. Although she knew the Scriptures well, she
believed the lie of the Devil that there are big sins and small sins.
She thought that a ‘small’ sin would not lead her to Hell because, after
all, she was a Christian.
The Lord continued,
“I went to her many times and told her to stop what she was doing but
many times she would reason that what she was doing was too small and
she attributed my warning to her own feelings of guilt. There was a time
when she stopped for a while but then she convinced herself again that
the warning was not from Me but her own voice because that sin was too
insignificant to grieve the Holy Spirit.”
I asked the Lord again to tell me what the sin was that this woman has committed and He answered me thus,
“This woman had a friend who is a nurse at Oshakati Hospital. Whenever
this woman was sick, she would not go to hospital and pay for her
hospital card as normal practice; she would just pick up the telephone
and tell her friend to organize medicine for her from the Hospital
Dispensary. Her friend would always oblige and tell her to pick up the
medicine at a particular time.
Firstly, she decided to accept the lie of
the Devil about small and big sin and rejected my truth; she caused
somebody else to sin and steal on her behalf but, worst of all, she
grieved the Holy Spirit. This is what caused her to be in Hell. It does
not matter whether you bring millions of souls to the Lord; it is still
possible to go to Hell for grieving the Holy Spirit. You must not only
care about the salvation of others but you must be careful not to forget
about your own soul. Be sensitive to the Holy Spirit at all times.” After the Lord said those words He said that we should go back.
Many Christians who have heard this story do find it
problematic. They would always ask me, “What about justification, mercy
and grace?” and “Is it possible to lose your Salvation after you have
received it?” “Is that not a bit too harsh?” “Can God be so cruel?”
Well, as I have said elsewhere in this book, I am not
presenting any theology here. I am just telling you what the Lord has
shown and taught me – and what He has allowed me to experience. Please
refer to your Bible for answers. Look at the following verses and make
your own judgment.
— “But I discipline my body and bring it into subjection, lest, when I preached to others, I myself should become disqualified.” (1Corinthians 9:27)
— “What shall we say then? Shall we
continue to sin that grace may abound? Certainly not! How shall we who
died to sin live any longer in it? (Romans 6:1-2)
— “Do not let sin reign in your mortal body, that you should obey it in its lust.” (Romans 6:12)
— “For if
we sin willfully after we have received the knowledge of the truth,
there no longer remains a sacrifice for sins, but a certain fearful
expectation of judgment and fiery indignation which will devour the
adversaries.” (Hebrews 10:26-27)
Can I go to Hell after having served the Lord and led many to Christ? You be the judge!
DISOBEDIENCE
On Monday 6 March 2006, I was woken by my alarm clock
at 05H30. I started to pray and realized that there was a heavy
anointing on me. My body was very weak and I was trembling; waves of
electricity were going through my body.
In the afternoon, as I was lying on my bed, I saw a
brilliant light filling the room. I saw tiny, white, round beads, the
size of a pin-head. The beads were falling like rain and would sink into
my skin on contact. In addition, I saw a cloud of something like white
mist coming from above; it also filled the room and sank into my skin on
contact.
Thereafter, I saw Jesus walking towards me in the midst of a
cloud of mist. He sat down on His chair next to my bed. I have no idea
where this chair comes from; it usually appears as soon as He is ready
to sit. It is a beautiful chair made of solid gold; the shape looks
similar to most chairs but with back support. On each leg is a silver
star; a similar but larger star is also on the back support. There are
round wheels on each leg. Jesus greeted me and stretched out His hand to me and
told me to get up because time was fast running out. He pulled me up by
my hand and I sat down on my bed.
Then he said to me, “Victoria, let us pray.“
He prayed in a language that I did not understand; I understood only
the word ‘Amen’. Then He continued by asking me what I was seeing and I
told Him that I was seeing groups of people going to their work and
others arriving at their work places. I was also seeing those similar
tiny white beads falling on those who arrived first at their work
places. After the first group, another group also arrived later. By that
time the rain of tiny beads had stopped falling.
I also saw different groups of people, arriving at
different churches on a Sunday morning. The rain of white beads would
begin to fall as soon as the early comers enter the churchyard. It
continued to fall for some time and then it stopped. The latecomers
would not find anything.
Jesus asked me whether I understood what those visions meant and I told Him that I did not understand. Then He explained to me: “These
visions mean that every place where you are supposed to be at a
specified time and you know what time you should be there, there are
always angels distributing blessings for that specified time. If you
arrive on time, you will receive your blessings but if you are late, you
will miss your blessings for that day because the angels distribute the
blessings only for that specific time. Victoria, I want to warn you
because you go late for work and you go especially late to church
services. You must know that at those times you have been late without
any valid reason; you have forever missed out on your blessings for
those days; they will never return to you again. Victoria you must stop
this thing and do not ever do it again, unless you have a valid reason
for being late.”
When the Lord said those words I really wished I
could disappear or give Him some acceptable excuses for my indiscipline.
I told Him that sometimes I oversleep but He looked me straight in the
eye and said that I was lying and that I had a bad tendency of going
back to bed after I have woken up, to succumb to a desire to sleep for a
‘few more minutes’. After Jesus had warned me, He said, “Stand up. Let us go. Time is fast running out and there are things we must do.”
This time the Lord took me to a place where I have
never been before; it was also the first time we took the road we walked
on that day. We arrived in a garden filled with beautiful flowers and
beautiful green trees: nothing on Earth can compare to this beauty. The
flowers were in all kinds of beautiful, bright colors. We sat down on a
beautiful garden bench, which was made from solid gold with small
brightly-shining silver stars
When we sat down, He pointed in front of us and said, “Victoria, look, can you see that city?” When
I looked, I saw a very large, brightly lit city. It was beautiful
beyond description. The city has a brightly shining golden gate and at
this gate was a man, seated, who was of great age. He had a long, white
beard and white hair. I had seen this man earlier and, when I asked
Jesus who this man was, he told me that it was Abraham, the father of
faith.
I saw many roads in that city, which are also paved
with gold. There are high-rise buildings and they were also shining like
gold. The shine and the glitter in the city is indescribable
Jesus turned to me and asked, “What do you think about that city?”
I answered that it was beautiful and I wanted to go there. Jesus said: “I
will take you there if you continue to be obedient because that is also
where your house will be. Stay obedient – because if you are
disobedient, Victoria, crows will fly in your house. Your house will be a
dwelling place of owls and a playground of ghosts. However, do not
fear, because I am with you. Just obey. For everyone who is disobedient,
his house will have crows flying there; it will be a dwelling place of
owls and a playground of ghosts.”
Jesus Christ is real and He loves us with a love that cannot be
described, His greatest desire is for us to choose life and spend
eternity with Him. His heart is aching for all those people who are
dying and going to Hell because they chose to reject the Salvation He
offered them and they chose death instead.
Whether you are a born-again Christian or not, please always remember this one thing: Time is fast running out.The full testimony can be read in Victoria’s book:
A Friendly Reminder: Time is Fast Running Out”
